Sunday, September 27, 2009

emoing

not really in good mood

haven spoken more than ten sentence of word the whole day

went to chi ji food fair

help to buy food .. the journey there was silence

mum went on her own

dad went on his own

came back

mum bang the door lock herself in it

dad sat in living room doing nothing

me ... what to do ... be there witnessing the cold war

mum went out the whole day

dad do his thing

me stuck in this damn house doing nothing

friends doing CS thing ....
although it is tiring
i still prefer to be there
than being here seeing all this thing happening

i rather being used my someone else
at least im useful
than staying in here

i want to go out the whole day ...
don't wan to see all this ..............

sleepless night

i miss him alot ...
i understand he has things to do ...
again i had the same bad nightmare replay everytime
everytime i cried because of the nightmare

the nightmare is indeed terrifying
im afraid of being alone
don't want to be dumb .....

1 comment:

  1. wendy...
    i know i may be a little annoying..
    hmm..
    just wanna let u know that, God is with you,
    hey, do PRAY and BELIEVE,
    miracle will happen,
    pray for ur parents too...
    and for urself
    PLEASE, ask God for strength and ask for rest.
    without rest, even a small problem can be very tough.
    trust me, trust GOd,
    nothing is impossible,
    turn to Him.
    im sorry that i cant be your side....
    but Be strong my friend!

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