i wan to leave here as soon as possible
i wan to leave
i wan to leave
i wan to get out from here
i tolerate
i tolerate

wait and see i will free myself from u
i wan to get out
i wan to leave this place

i tolerate
no more tears
no more weeping

im going to be stronger and get the hell out from here

be strong
be strong

i tolerate u

very down...........
turn off phones
don't want to listen to any call
mood so down

haiz...
wendy its time to get head into ur plan

i really miss all my friends in secondary school
nats ,, dingdong, cat, meiping , louise

misss them

breaking free
i think its time again for me to put a full stop
we are two diff world ppl........

head back
focus!!!!!!!!!!!! in my study

now they are playing mahjong
gosh can't tahan d ...
im the silly girl sitting aside watching them play
im not really fond in it ... hehehe
but really hillarious to see them play

wosh long time i didn't log in and tell my story

now it is time to report d

well let me start from 10/10
that day it was a friday i was really happy
because mum finally agree to let me go
haha that nitez pei shin and pei shi invite me to SUNRISE
there
hahah the place there was really nice i like that place
it is beside the beach and above sky high were stars all over

no matter how that nitez is the first time parents allow me to stay out late outside till 2 am

the next day is my birthday
honestly i was quite dissapointed when most of my friend give me aeroplane
this year birthday was exciting i get to celebrate my birthday in paradise hotel
first of all i started to pack things up and drive my white kancil to pick up thing lin
then head to paradise to check in
we reach first them met hanniel there
he was in his black shirt and there it is the pink doggy hahah
it was so quite
he gave me two present this year ...
one doggy and a handmade present

thing lin left us both walking at the beach i was really happy
then uncle and his friend stop by
we had donat and mum homecook curry and friendrice

mum and dad stop by and my face got smash with cakes by my dear brother
then mimi and daddy and caroline came
so glad they came ... it was really a great day i was really really really happy
and continuosly i received several sms wishing me ...

later on .... they started playing cards hahah...me leh be ASAM hahaha but im glad to be so .... i started to clean up

nite fall we went to segafredo to drink
it disappointed xian ... sorry
i din't know it would be like tat

.......

on my birthday i got a surprise present from the gov... i got the SPA offer at last
and get to study half medical for free and been assure of a job...
this offer is indeed temptating is just that ........
im not sure wheather i will leave or stay ... because in kolej
and in pr i had already settle down ... it is not time yet ........

but no matter how im still going for it
take as though it is a try ba........
god bless me ba.... hope i can get so i can study for free
and then parents won't have the burden of paying those fees ..........

now they are still playing mahjong and im here typing ....

interesting day

9 okt

today class starts at 11am
finish at one pm....
it was indeed interesting day haha
first meet the principal to discuss about my problem concerning cs
then meeting with my PR group for the following assignment hahah
have fun with it
then went for lunch at the canteen with pei shi , pei qing , canon , hanniel and me
i can't finish the lausy food
then after giving pei shi pei qing a lift home
hanniel took me to redbox to meet some of his friends
one of them i know is kenny
they were really hilarious i like them they are so cool
then he sent home to get dress
for later nite event
i was so so so so sooooooooo happy my mum allow me to come out at nitez
haha
i got dress up clean and nice
and today he dressed up very very handsome
amaze by him
he came and drive me on the way picking up pei qing and pei shi
we went to SUN SET in batu feringgi
we went there and talk whole nite with drinks
hanniel order a bucket of beer
haha i tried some hahahahha but dare not drink lots
so........i afraid he might be drunk
we have fun fun time chatting and the beach was peace .... sea water washing on shore , stars lighting bright above it was a beautiful scene .....
i came home around 2 am hehehe...........

it was really a fun nite out..................................................

its 2 am in the morning
leg pain awaken me
dumb me sat infront of the table
scroll through net ...
checking for mails......

once awake can't slip haiz..
had a small chat wit keyin
....
boring..............................

gave up .......... leave it as it is ...

watever and how my birthday will be .......don't care any more

hope xian , nats, ding dong are there to celebrate with me .....i wish mei ping could attend
and louise too but they can't ........

wish that i could have another dream of mine come true .....
wish that everyone wil be happy and healthy forever
wish that my health will always be good

my birthday coming soon i doubt
my bestie remember it ??
honestly
im really disappointed with my besties

except for a few of them ... who remember it

haiz.......

book a hotel room planning of having fun
is my 18 birthday ... want it to be special

sad .......really heartbreaking
when someone promise me at first and then
break it .....

i hope to celebrate my birthday with all my bestie around ........ i don't wan any fancy expensive gift
i don't mind if u all come empty handed
what i ask for is just .....ur companion.....

sad
sad
sad

haizzzzzzzzzzz
is that too much to ask for ??